Geez & Ann, a movie review

Okay, the main reason why I was thrilled to watch this movie is that the main actor, Geez. I like nerd-kind-of-guy and hmm, yeah, when I said nerd guy, it obviously refers to a handsome-nerd-guy. Lek jer, taste kita kan tak sama haha. 

They first met at the Alumni event; there was an unexpected blackout that occurred during the event, and Ann was one of the people in charge of the event. At that moment, as she was trying to fix the chaotic situation, she climbed off the ladder to turn on the switch or something. Moments later, she was about to fall and tada!!!! Geez saved her from the fall (cam biasalah, love at the first sight gaknya).Oh, yes, I forget to point out that Geez and his band are one of the performers in that event, that's why he was in the backstage.

First of all, their love story seems rushed??? I think it's because when they first met, Geez handed Ann his iPod and asked her to listen to and review the song he wrote. I mean, yall just met and talked not more than 30 minutes? 

In contrast to Geez, Ann was brought up by a loving, caring family; no family issues. Geez's parents had divorced, and he's now staying with his mother, who was extremely strict about his son's circle and education. Geez's mother was dying to send him to Berlin to study medicine. Haa here comes the problem, there was a day when Geez and Ann went out for a date, and then Geez's mother called asking for his whereabouts, but Geez said "bookstore" when he was actually on a date with Ann. Ann, being immature, suddenly burst out and said something like, "how can you have the audacity to lie to your mom?" WITHOUT first asking why he did so, is it hard to be honest with his mother? What upsets me more is that she was also mad when Geez told her he was going to study in Berlin. 

I WAS LIKE.. SIS, YOUR BOYFRIEND IS GOING THERE TO STUDY -_- 

The essence of this movie is that an immature partner will stress you out and ruin the relationship. 

I feel so annoyed when Ann upset that Geez took some time to reply to her texts. From my perspective, Geez did everything that he could to fix the situation and ensure that Ann is fine but Ann? She did nothing but complain. I would say that Ann never put any effort to understand Geez's struggle in handling his mother. Also, it was her that asked Geez to stop contacting her so that she can move on with her life but when Geez showed up after he finished his study in Berlin, she told Geez, "why must it be now? you should have come to me earlier." Astaghfirullah. Sakit hati saya dibuatnya, saudara-saudari sekalian. 

There are many components that you need to have a stable relationship, and maturity is the key. If you have an immature partner, they'll have difficulty understanding that you've got a busy schedule, so he or she'll keep whining about the simplest thing, like why you're online but don't answer them, why you're refusing to pick up a call, etc. It's so mentally draining to have a partner like this because they don't understand you. Whenever you try to explain the situation, they're going to cut you off and say that everything you say is just an excuse, and in the end, you're going to get frustrated because it's going to happen again and again. What's the point of having a partner, but they're not willing to understand your situation? 

If Ann were a mature partner, she will try to help Geez resolved his issue with his mother instead of getting upset about why Geez lied to his mother. If Ann were a mature partner, she would understand that Geez was busy with his study (study medicine kot, ko expect apa), hence it should be fine if Geez took some time to reply to her texts. If Ann were a mature partner, 4 years of long-distance-relationship would be fine. 

My advice to anyone who reads is to try your best to find a mature partner. A mature partner is going to try to understand you and help you grow. I don't agree when people think you need constant arguments in a relationship to make a relationship alive? Nah, this isn't for me. I would prefer stability, and whenever there is a problem, try to fix it as soon as possible. It's fine to be clingy but everything should be in moderation gituhhh. 

Rate: 2/5 - 2 is for Geez's face and character development. 

Would I recommend it? Yes, only if you wanna see how Ann ruined the precious relationship with her attitude. 

Twenty-twenty

How did I perceive 2020? 

Horrible, 

but I've learned a lot. 

I met a lot of new people, I have gained new experiences, and improved my soft-skills during my 2-months-internship. It is always exciting to meet new people even though it drains my energy at the end of the day. But it is a worthy-life experience that I have to grab to climb the ladder. It makes me think, am I really fit to work in this field? Apparently, we never know. I will never know. The truth is, I don't think I have a passion for anything. Maybe I lost my passion? Or do I have a passion in the first place? All of these thoughts have been lingering in my mind these days. I feel like.... there's nothing that am I good at. Yeah, that's me being pessimistic. On the contrary, if I were to be optimistic about my life, I would tell myself that one day, I will be an expert in this field but it just a matter of time. Isn't it normal to feel that way? I mean, one day, you're so optimistic about your life, but the other, you just want to do nothing on your bed and thinking why you're still alive. 

I'm 22, but I'm still struggling to love myself. But then again, I won't give up on improving myself even though most of the time, I just wanna disappear. 

"Wouldn't it better if I don't exist at the first place?" 

I think it's inevitable that I should blame myself whenever something went wrong or things didn't go the way I planned.  

"It's your fault." 

People often say that to me and that hurts me the most. That's why I am scared to say those words to others because I know how painful it can be. I've been wondering if it's painful for me to say that to others, shouldn't I think it's the same way for myself? I will only hurt myself if I keep on blaming myself. I then realize that being kind to yourself is the hardest thing to do. 

For the past few weeks, I've been stuck in the middle of two notions that I've often heard. First, if you really love someone, you have to fight for them. On the other hand, if you really love someone, let them go because if it's meant for you, it'll come to you no matter how quickly you try to get away from them. I was perplexed by what had happened between us, and it took me a while to think which one was the best thing I was supposed to do? Thank God, at that moment, I can think objectively. Considering that it's only going to hurt him if I hold him back, I decided to let him go so that I could be free from guilt. In short, I choose the latter because I want a sense of inner peace. Isn't that cliche? But that's probably the best thing for now and I regret nothing. Besides.... why would I regret my decision? I've used all my brain-cells to come to that decision, I don't wanna make them feel wasted. 

22/12/2020 - I think I'm doing better in loving myself and I will continue doing it. 

I think the biggest lesson I've learned this year is to be thankful for everything you got and everything you've gone through. It's all written anyway. I don't want to stress myself thinking that no one will marry me before I turn 25 (I was foolish to think that I was able to do this hshsh). Now I just want to focus on embracing myself, equipping myself with whatever necessary in order to survive, and turn myself into a decent, intellectual, and elegant woman (gituhh). 

I'm not expecting a lot for next year. I just hope I'll be able to finish my degree and graduate on time. Of course, I'd like this covid to come to an end soon so that I can travel again.

Last note from me, I wish you have a nice year ahead and I hope you will stay sane. To all my friends (if yall reading this), thank you so much for the support yall gave me when I hit the rock bottom; emotionally, mentally (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ