Sacrifices

part I

the main reason why im writing back because i couldnt withstand anymore with em i dont know i just feel like im quite miserable. i dont know why my laziness level is increases and this is soooooooooooo annyoing you know i cant overcome that problem well then my work are increasing day by day.

the first thing is
i think i better uninstall or stop the tweeting and instagram-ing activities. it just make me so lalai ah.
1) twitter em ahahahah yah its hard but i guess im the person who have to work very hard to get something that i aim for. im not like the others who are gifted with the good brain. im not saying that Allah isnt unfair but i have to trust Him because He is the one who arranged your life story. i just cant stop tweeting!! such an addicted application. im glad that im no more addicted with that sakai facebook ahahahaha im kutuk-ing that app padahal dulu kaki facebook. huh i dont know when this kind of addiction will get rid of from my life. yah i sould stop tweeting until the right time comes.

2) instagram
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH tbh im a stalker. keep stalking others and wasting my time at the stupid things. kena kawal diri utk keep uploading pictures about yr life & yah lepas spm upload la gambar banyak2! yah, quite hard too but why dont we try. come on! 7 months only then u can do anything u wanna do!!!!!!!

3) tumblr & blogspot
em hahaha im not going to deactive these bcs this is my only entertainment! how about whatsapp? em no, i still needed bcs i dont really have credit so with whatsapp i can send whatever i want without using credit bcs we're using wifi hahaha but yah i should have to control myself.

part II

i need my old life. the one who can run. the one who can do anything that she wanna do. ah i should stop this.

so dear myself anas
u need to study.
u really need to study. u have to struggle. dont compare yourself with the one who is gifted. people not same. remember how hard your parent work to support your studies in boarding school

dont u wanna make them happy
make they forget about their pain when looking at your straight A's result?
dont u wanna make them happy
make they proud of you
make they no regret with all sacrifices that they done
just for you

dont you wanna make yourself proud?
we are going through school life since we're in kindergarten. so, why dont kita treat diri kita dengan something yg membanggakan. belajar penat penat dari tadika takkan ended up taknak result gempak? tak rasa sia sia ke belajar dari kecik tapi tak nak appreciate keringat sendiri. love yourself.

kejayaan semanis madu memerlukan pengorbanan sepahit madu.
do it now or regret tomorrow.

dear anas,
may Allah give you strength to fight against yourself. to fight laziness & nafsu. may Allah hear you dua' but yah He's always hear :) keep trying. never lose hope. Allah always be there for you. all the best in whatever you do, dear myself xxx may straight A's could be achieved!

its been almost a year!

assalamualaikum "hi ppl" the true is im going to write back. bcs i think this is the way where i can improve my english or even writing skills. so this blog is mine and everything is mine hahahhaha and still i dont know why i love to type haha with such a long term like hahahahhahahaha ok back to the main point 

now, i had full fill my dream to get into sbp. and yah no im samura-rian. ive never imagine hows my life gonna be there. to be honest, 2014 is a tough year. im going out from my comfort zone and face the another chapter in my life. the different book actually. so many things happen in a year i guess. i met addmath bio chemist and physics. you should realize that those subjects are very important and enjoy to learn. i put my passion on learning so insya Allah i'll be a learner for the rest of my life. while im typing this post, its raining outside there. the rain just feel me and its not raining cats and dogs for sure. 

samura.

its a place where i know the real meaning of life. alhamdulillah, i survived from those obstacles so well. yes, we should forget how much the obstacles hurt you, and keep going and trying. everything in this world is temporary. so its better for you to enjoy every seconds in your life bcs it will go away one day and stay strong in order to face those obstacles and hardship bcs it will go away either. samura taught me to be strong. a very strong person especially when youve to face the situation after get the exam's result hahhahahaahah this is year is the terrible year for my result. ive never fail before but being here make me feel the situation of a failure. 

i keep motivate myself whenever i fail especially in addmaths. i dont know how to explain how much i love addmaths bcs i do love maths actually. when you love something it doesnt mean youll get it. same goes to when you love someone it doesnt mean youll be with them for sure hahahaha l0l 

whatever is 

you have to keep trying and keep trying no matter how hard it is 

forget how much it hurts and try again 

im have a mixed feeling to face 2015. kinda excited, afraid and yah im sure that i'll get a little bit sorrow when ive to leave the school moments. its been for almost 13 years ive attend to school and of course there are too much memories created. yah, im going to face the new world again after spm. life isnt colorful without challenges. keep moving and leave the fear behind. get your own confident!