Saturday, July 4, 2020

that's how it goes


It's been a while right, huh? My most recent post on this blog is June 2018 (so much time passed lol) I've been going through a lot of things since August 2018. If I can recall things that happened in 2018, it would be my involvement in MalayaMUN in which I was the protocol officer. I had a lot of fun as I got to widen my circle by socializing with the delegates (though I'm not a fan of being social and small talks, I just had to). I'm genuinely hoping that soon everything will be normal, even though we haven't discovered an official vaccine for this disease, and then "surprisingly", China discovered a new virus but this time, it related to pigs and Kalimantan is in the state of emergency over forest fires (it happens annually anyway). 

I'm still in the state of befuddled with the fact that I make it to 2020? When I was a kid, I always consider 2020 is another dimension of the world. The most common one would be flying cars, me having a big house with a lift, and probably a robot that can finish my homework. Sadly, the only robot that I found this year is the one that we have in Makcik Cafe (pastu tak function?)

Ok now, we move to 2019. To sum up my 2019, I would say that it such a hectic year but it's the most meaningful year to me. I guess there was nothing much at the beginning of the year but it started to be fast-paced in June. I was involved in Kalsom Movement, The Volunteerism and Cultural Exchange (VEX), Small Changes, Leadership Camp, I went to Aceh and flop my final for the fifth semester as well (specifically my Admin Law paper, sorry Dr. Sri for disappointing you with my uncritical thoughts and logic). I guess I'm wrapping up 2019 with a little blunder, but well, life doesn't always give you justice. To add, my friends, Alia Jasmeen and Piah were married last year and at the same time, I also lost a good friend of mine, Farid, who died in an accident. I was speechless when I heard the news, and I didn't make it to see him for the last time as I was in KL. I've been witnessing his hard work to save up for his marriage with his fiance but He has a better plan after all. May Allah bless his soul. Amin. 

Ok now, I'm attaching pictures here so I will look a bit creative  [Pardon my language, idk it sounds weird here] 


Before we went to snorkeling in Pulau Sabang, Aceh. 

Caption America's team :)

Besides, I was also part of the Tun Suffian International Moot committee with Qis and Farah [we luvvvvv handling PA system :")] Nevertheless, I got to enjoy the scrumptious food that we had in the hotel haha.

Multech & Volunteers - Izni, Jiha, Awatif :) 

2020 is a year full of surprises, and I would say that most of us would have finally realized that Western people aren't smart as they seemed to be. It becomes more evident, especially when they refuse to wear masks and say that the fact that the government forces them to wear is infringing their right. Luckily we did not encounter this moment in Malaysia. Buuuuuut, As usual in Malaysia, we are (again) engaged in a never-ending debate about who's at fault when it comes to rape? The inequalities before the law that are getting worse among the politicians, the continuous vague guidelines during the PKP, the rude school kids who refuse to finish their homework, we have seen some people in our community who are not clear about the issue of racism. Haihh banyak betul current issue to the extent that I feel tired of catching up with everything. 

Even though 2020 seems like a messed-up year, it's also been a good year for me. Finally, I can experience the whole of Ramadhan with my family (haven't experienced this since I was a kid as my father often went out for outstation). My relationship with my dad is closer to me. I mean, you know me well, you 're going to know how awkward I am with my dad. I honestly always feel jealous of those who have a good relationship with their dad. "Good" here actually refers to a "warm" relationship as I don't have any issue with my dad it just that we are not that close to each other? I envy those who are able to share everything with their dad :") All in all, everything that happened is a blessing in disguise.

Ok now, let's move to the most favorite part which is HONNE new album!!!!!!!!!!!!! Omg!!!!!!!!!!! I'm glad that found Honne sooner. Day 1 will always be my favorite but the new album is a masterpiece!!!!! Look at the lyrics tho. It's so poetic.

Ok lah the reason why I choose these specific lines is that I know many of us had planned everything that we wanted to do. But, all of a sudden, we were attacked by Covid-19, which obstructs us from doing all of them. If we weren't attacked by Covid-19, I might have finished my Sabah volunteer project, which was due to take place last April. I'm sad that I can't join next year because my parents didn't allow me to go but takpelah haha.

Essentially, there will be a lot of things you're planning that won't go the way you want it to be because that's the beauty of life. When all goes the way you've expected, then there's no way you can stumble and learn how to pick up yourself.
I'm trying to inculcate the positive vibes here (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

The last remark for this post is that we always need to remember that there are so many things that we need to be grateful for. (It's a reminder to me, too, because I often feel like I'm not a thankful servant enough). So here's a list of things that I'm really grateful for \(^-^)/

I'm thankful that I managed to survive the pandemic phase (so far) at home, not at the hospital.
I'm thankful that no one in my family and friends gets infected.
I'm thankful that there is always food in my fridge during the pandemic, it's such a heartbreaking to see that there are many people struggling to have rice in their plate while I am eating a lot of food for the whole time.
I'm thankful that I have my friends that keep me sane.
I'm thankful that I finally post something after 17 drafts that I hesitate to post.

p/s: I edited my blog hoping it won't look dull anymore.

Thanks for reading it ᵔᴥᵔ

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Shoulders and Toes

Most of the time, I would use my backpack to class because for me backpack is much more convenient compared to a sling bag unless I only have one class for that particular day. Besides, I, as a girl have lots to bring; since I am using waterproof sunscreen every day, I have to bring makeup remover, moisturizer, etc., but for stationery, I started to bring the necessary stuff only because pencil case suddenly turned into a burden to my shoulder. Sometimes, just bringing my Acer laptop together with the charger is already making my shoulder aching especially when I have to walk to college from faculty at the end of the draining day. At the age of 20, a laptop and the charger which I think the weigh is not exceeding 3kg.... makes me sick (I think I am in the disadvantage situation as I have small shoulders; broad shoulders always be my dream when I was a kid lol). Hence, this why I proposed to my parents I wanted to buy a very light laptop because it will absolutely lift the burden hehe.

So, imagine the burden of books that those little kids have to bear every day in school. It would be fine for those kids who went to school by car, but how about those kids who have to walk all the way to school? I've been witnessing these scenarios since I was a kid as I went to school by myself most of the times. When I was in primary school, I went to school by bicycle and whenever my parents were off, I forced them to send me to school because it was an obstacle to stay awake at 7 a.m. and rode your bike. Later in secondary school, I walked to school every day because none of my girlfriends were riding a bicycle, and it such a pathetic life I had because Malaysian didn't want to inculcate Japanese's culture. Again, with your small body, you have to bear so much weigh in your back :( Dahla underweight, buku pulak overweight. At the same time, my mom always warned me to walk and sit up straight but I have a problem to make it right because I get used to bend my shoulder a bit because of the heavy bag that I always bear. Luckily I managed to overcome a bit because it is a must to have a proper posture whenever you are on the track because if you didn’t, habis la ko. But sometimes, I bend my shoulders involuntarily; my mom told me that it is one of the consequences of bringing heavy backpack to school. I don’t take it seriously until I see how badly my posture in certain pictures.

After a long mukaddimah about my childhood years, my point here is… it is a good improvement that government now is focusing on how to tackle this problem. Some of us might see this as trivial but little did you know that the health of the youngsters is vital? If the government don’t do anything to fix this, could you imagine how many people would suffer spinal pain in the future? Hence, the government has to spend a lot to cure it because the progressive of the country basically depends on how productive the nation is. Kalau semua dah sakit belakang siapa nak run the country? Kucing ke?

Ha cakap pasal kucing, dulu every time my classmates left their books at home mesti the teachers said “Habis buku kat rumah siapa nak baca? Kucing awak?” Kalau tak kucing nanti the teacher akan cakapnenek awak”. How could they disrespect cats and our grandmas? I just wanna emphasize that not all kids can handle and follow the class schedule. Not all of them are as diligent as I was to take note on which books that the teachers wanted to use on the next day, what books that you can refer to do homework. Most of them would rather bring alllll of them as it was easier than arranging books by looking at the schedule. Hence, it is important to have a big locker in each class. It’s not necessary to have an individual locker especially in primary school. Kids love to see new stuff. They love to experiment and I bet they will make an experiment with the lockers itself if they were to have an individual locker.

A big locker in a class would be sufficient to occupy the students’ book especially those thicker books. Maybe the schools can set up certain guidelines for the teacher on how to maximize the usage of the lockers in order to tackle this issue. Perhaps the locker is for the textbook as they’re much heavier compared to exercise books. If I am not mistaken, during my secondary years, it was prohibited to left the textbooks under your table. HARAM KO TAHU. But hello, we all love to do haram things in school. However, from what I read in the news is that not all school could afford to put in a locker in a class. Money is the key to education so yeah, especially schools in rural areas; this implementation would burden the school. Another opinion that I found is that, restructuring the textbooks and exercise book which means using a lighter paper in exercise books or maybe students can just use a test-pad instead of the exercise book, and put all the papers in a file. I do agree with this but I think this idea would be more suitable and convenient for secondary school students. Adjusting the weight and the size of the textbooks would be a good idea for me. Though it might take some time to provide and change everything, it will never be too late to make it right. At least, we could provide some comfort to our future generation.

Furthermore, schools that have a stable funding from PIBG, really need to consider to provide a big locker in a class. Maybe for schools that couldn’t afford it, maybe they can create a small area in each classroom to put all the books, just by using a few tables or boxes. It sounds easier but I think I always enjoyed whenever my teachers told me to left the book in class because it is so annoying to deal with a heavy backpack while you are riding a bicycle.

Maybe it will be a bit difficult for the teachers to handle this at the beginning but if teachers as the means to change the world don’t want to start it first, who else will take place? I am glad that when I moved to a boarding school, heavy bag wasn’t really a big deal as we had an individual locker, one big locker in each class, and the most heaven part was you were allowed to put as much as books you want under your desk.

Furthermore, another issue that keeps on running in my feeds is black shoes. As someone who has been wearing black shoes for many years since primary school as I was a prefect, and then I was wearing black shoes again in secondary school as I was a PRS and then when I moved to a boarding school, everyone must wear black shoes; I do believe that wearing black shoes is much better than white shoes. Why? On weekends, we don’t have to spend our time in washing the shoes, because it took such a long period to dry up the shoes especially during the rainy season. Dah la penat sental your shoes pastu kena kapur. Banyak kerja compared to wearing black shoes – you only need to polish it. Nak hygienic sikit, spray your shoes using the anti-bacterial spray. Ala hygienic thing pun takkan la sekolah nak kena ajar? On the other hand, some people contended that wearing black shoes will degrade the students’ discipline as the students won’t bother to take care of their appearances. What do you think? I don’t think so because discipline shouldn’t be indicated by the color of their shoes. There are many other important aspects that need to be considered rather than focusing on how clean their shoes are.

In conclusion, I am glad that the government are trying to address certain issues that should be addressed from years back but, better late than never. However, I realized that this current government is a bit misleading in terms of the PTPTN issue, UEC, MyBrain, etc. I don’t wanna discuss it in details because this can be pretty much tiring for my brain right now.

Before I end this post, what do you think that one is only being entitled to pay for PTPTN loan once their salaries reach RM4000? I just wonder how long PTPTN has to wait for a fresh graduate to get promoted in a better position so that they can reach the salary of RM4000/month. CAMNE NAK ROLLING DUIT? That’s only my curiosity. Do tell me about your thoughts, your opinions are welcome.

Bye. See you!