Sunday, July 29, 2018

Shoulders and Toes

Most of the time, I would use my backpack to class because for me backpack is much more convenient compared to a sling bag unless I only have one class for that particular day. Besides, I, as a girl have lots to bring; since I am using waterproof sunscreen every day, I have to bring makeup remover, moisturizer, etc., but for stationery, I started to bring the necessary stuff only because pencil case suddenly turned into a burden to my shoulder. Sometimes, just bringing my Acer laptop together with the charger is already making my shoulder aching especially when I have to walk to college from faculty at the end of the draining day. At the age of 20, a laptop and the charger which I think the weigh is not exceeding 3kg.... makes me sick (I think I am in the disadvantage situation as I have small shoulders; broad shoulders always be my dream when I was a kid lol). Hence, this why I proposed to my parents I wanted to buy a very light laptop because it will absolutely lift the burden hehe.

So, imagine the burden of books that those little kids have to bear every day in school. It would be fine for those kids who went to school by car, but how about those kids who have to walk all the way to school? I've been witnessing these scenarios since I was a kid as I went to school by myself most of the times. When I was in primary school, I went to school by bicycle and whenever my parents were off, I forced them to send me to school because it was an obstacle to stay awake at 7 a.m. and rode your bike. Later in secondary school, I walked to school every day because none of my girlfriends were riding a bicycle, and it such a pathetic life I had because Malaysian didn't want to inculcate Japanese's culture. Again, with your small body, you have to bear so much weigh in your back :( Dahla underweight, buku pulak overweight. At the same time, my mom always warned me to walk and sit up straight but I have a problem to make it right because I get used to bend my shoulder a bit because of the heavy bag that I always bear. Luckily I managed to overcome a bit because it is a must to have a proper posture whenever you are on the track because if you didn’t, habis la ko. But sometimes, I bend my shoulders involuntarily; my mom told me that it is one of the consequences of bringing heavy backpack to school. I don’t take it seriously until I see how badly my posture in certain pictures.

After a long mukaddimah about my childhood years, my point here is… it is a good improvement that government now is focusing on how to tackle this problem. Some of us might see this as trivial but little did you know that the health of the youngsters is vital? If the government don’t do anything to fix this, could you imagine how many people would suffer spinal pain in the future? Hence, the government has to spend a lot to cure it because the progressive of the country basically depends on how productive the nation is. Kalau semua dah sakit belakang siapa nak run the country? Kucing ke?

Ha cakap pasal kucing, dulu every time my classmates left their books at home mesti the teachers said “Habis buku kat rumah siapa nak baca? Kucing awak?” Kalau tak kucing nanti the teacher akan cakapnenek awak”. How could they disrespect cats and our grandmas? I just wanna emphasize that not all kids can handle and follow the class schedule. Not all of them are as diligent as I was to take note on which books that the teachers wanted to use on the next day, what books that you can refer to do homework. Most of them would rather bring alllll of them as it was easier than arranging books by looking at the schedule. Hence, it is important to have a big locker in each class. It’s not necessary to have an individual locker especially in primary school. Kids love to see new stuff. They love to experiment and I bet they will make an experiment with the lockers itself if they were to have an individual locker.

A big locker in a class would be sufficient to occupy the students’ book especially those thicker books. Maybe the schools can set up certain guidelines for the teacher on how to maximize the usage of the lockers in order to tackle this issue. Perhaps the locker is for the textbook as they’re much heavier compared to exercise books. If I am not mistaken, during my secondary years, it was prohibited to left the textbooks under your table. HARAM KO TAHU. But hello, we all love to do haram things in school. However, from what I read in the news is that not all school could afford to put in a locker in a class. Money is the key to education so yeah, especially schools in rural areas; this implementation would burden the school. Another opinion that I found is that, restructuring the textbooks and exercise book which means using a lighter paper in exercise books or maybe students can just use a test-pad instead of the exercise book, and put all the papers in a file. I do agree with this but I think this idea would be more suitable and convenient for secondary school students. Adjusting the weight and the size of the textbooks would be a good idea for me. Though it might take some time to provide and change everything, it will never be too late to make it right. At least, we could provide some comfort to our future generation.

Furthermore, schools that have a stable funding from PIBG, really need to consider to provide a big locker in a class. Maybe for schools that couldn’t afford it, maybe they can create a small area in each classroom to put all the books, just by using a few tables or boxes. It sounds easier but I think I always enjoyed whenever my teachers told me to left the book in class because it is so annoying to deal with a heavy backpack while you are riding a bicycle.

Maybe it will be a bit difficult for the teachers to handle this at the beginning but if teachers as the means to change the world don’t want to start it first, who else will take place? I am glad that when I moved to a boarding school, heavy bag wasn’t really a big deal as we had an individual locker, one big locker in each class, and the most heaven part was you were allowed to put as much as books you want under your desk.

Furthermore, another issue that keeps on running in my feeds is black shoes. As someone who has been wearing black shoes for many years since primary school as I was a prefect, and then I was wearing black shoes again in secondary school as I was a PRS and then when I moved to a boarding school, everyone must wear black shoes; I do believe that wearing black shoes is much better than white shoes. Why? On weekends, we don’t have to spend our time in washing the shoes, because it took such a long period to dry up the shoes especially during the rainy season. Dah la penat sental your shoes pastu kena kapur. Banyak kerja compared to wearing black shoes – you only need to polish it. Nak hygienic sikit, spray your shoes using the anti-bacterial spray. Ala hygienic thing pun takkan la sekolah nak kena ajar? On the other hand, some people contended that wearing black shoes will degrade the students’ discipline as the students won’t bother to take care of their appearances. What do you think? I don’t think so because discipline shouldn’t be indicated by the color of their shoes. There are many other important aspects that need to be considered rather than focusing on how clean their shoes are.

In conclusion, I am glad that the government are trying to address certain issues that should be addressed from years back but, better late than never. However, I realized that this current government is a bit misleading in terms of the PTPTN issue, UEC, MyBrain, etc. I don’t wanna discuss it in details because this can be pretty much tiring for my brain right now.

Before I end this post, what do you think that one is only being entitled to pay for PTPTN loan once their salaries reach RM4000? I just wonder how long PTPTN has to wait for a fresh graduate to get promoted in a better position so that they can reach the salary of RM4000/month. CAMNE NAK ROLLING DUIT? That’s only my curiosity. Do tell me about your thoughts, your opinions are welcome.

Bye. See you! 

Monday, July 9, 2018

Count your blessings

Not sure whether I should apologize for taking a long time to come with a new post. My blog is dusted with the old posts. I actually have lots of draft in my laptop but it takes lots of courage for me to post it to the public. It happens every time. 

There is abundant of new issues but I don’t think I’ve interested enough to know all of them. I want to be woke about all the issues happening across the world but hey I’m such a lazy person especially in this holiday break which makes my laziness getting worse. I even told my mom that I don’t want to find a job as I gave up in searching it.... and I promised her that I would be rajin all the time and try out many new recipes lol. 

Before I go further I just wanna tell you that this year is the longest and the most productive Raya so far after I’ve been living for 20 years hahaha (Sorry I can’t help myself from typing “hahaha”). I went to follow my mother beraya like every weekend. Every weekend ada je open house. Oh yeah I’m going to follow my mom to her reunion next week. Couldn’t imagine how drained I would be on that day... because my mom knows lots of people and lots of people know her.. she told me she was quite popular during her high school time. Maybe I should be started to believe in her. 

The examination result for the second semester was announced today. I was scared. But not having panic attack like I used to. I like it. I’ve improved a lot in handling my anxietyyyy hehe. But...... unfortunately, I couldn’t access my result because I haven’t fully paid my fees. It’s okay lah I already redha for my result. No matter what happens I only hope that I could pass every single semester. I’m not hoping for flying colors; being able to see “PASS” is more than enough.  

As usual, my friends will ask my result and hahaha this time even me myself don’t know abt it. Some of them complained, some of them glad that even tho they didn’t get what they expected to, they passed. Regardless whatever situations my friends are facing, I am glad that I’ve been surrounded by people who didn’t lose hope to Allah. I’m happy about that. 

My mom — the most positive person I’ve ever met. No matter how hard the situation I’ve been handling, she always reminds me to have faith in Him. If you’ve done your best, let it to Allah. Let Him decides what is the best for you. One thing that I want to emphasize is... what do you think is good for you, not necessarily good in the eyes of Allah, The Almighty. We never know what will happen in the future. Good results might  make you distant from Allah, that’s why He gave you less that what you wanted to. He gives what you need. Not what you want. Trying to live a life with those principles, in sha Allah, you’ll find happiness. Do strive in whatever you do. But don’t put 100% trust upon your effort. Little did you know that no matter  how hard you’re working on something, if He says no, it will never happen. Allah kalau makbulkan doa, pisau yang tumpul pun boleh tajam. 

“If you give thanks (by accepting Faith and worshipping none but Allah), I will give you more (of My Blessings)” — Ibrahim: 7 

I bukan nak buka kelas cara-cara bersyukur ke apa but not many of us are actually realize that there are many things in life, is actually a blessing. Besides, we never know the value of something until we lose it, right. Have you ever consider your health as a blessing? Your parents? Your good friends? The ability to buy what you what? The ability to see the world without spending hundreds to see things clearly? Hanya orang rabun je faham I :')

I don’t know the value of a pair of legs until I had surgery in 2015 and when the doctor said I can’t do sports as I used to. Imagine..... Baru kaki kot?!? Baru injured sikit... Belum kudung lagi? Started from those days, I never downgrade whenever they say they’re sick, they need help because I know how painful it is to be sick.... and how shameful it was to keep on relying on people because you can’t do anything by yourself. I always feel worthless because of my condition because I know it won’t be the same again. It hurts my pride whenever I can’t help my parents doing the house chores because the doctor said I should avoid myself from doing heavy chores because it will make it worse. I honestly have a hard time in loving myself since the surgery I had back in 2015. 

But... just because kau rasa worthless takkan kau taknak teruskan life? Even time tu dalam otak ni asyik rasa nak bunuh diri sebab rasa anak yang paling tak guna sebab.... sebelah kaki dah barai hahaha. Tapi tulah Allah dah cakap hidup ni tak boleh give up. Alhamdulillah Islam. Ni ha, jadi Islam dari kecik pun ramai tak sedar benda tu nikmat Allah. Ramai orang yang dah besar baru peluk Islam cakap betapa indahnya Islam. Betapa hebatnya dapat rasa kasih sayang Allah. 

“And He gave you of all that you asked for, and if you count the Blessings of Allah, never will you be able to count them.” — Ibrahim: 34. 

Banyak lagi rahmat yang Allah dah bagi. Kita je tak nampak as we blinded by the disadvantages that we had. Biasalah, kita manusia biasa. Memang asyik lupa je dengan Tuhan. That’s why we need a good environment to live in. Biol mana pun member kalau dia care pasal solat, you better keep them. 

Lagi satu, besar mana pun kasih sayang seorang ibu, Allah’s love toward His Servants wins. See? Kita terlepas Subuh, ada ke bangun tidur tangan kaki semua tak ada? He gives us chances to repent. He knows that humans make mistake. That’s why He loves those who repent. For me, having lots of good people in your life is one of the blessings that I couldn’t ask more from Him. 

So chill jela hidup ni. Kita kan hidup dua kali. But we need to ensure that we prepared the best here so we can have a good life in Akhirah :) Belajar pun ibadah tau hehe (macam takde correlation tapi takpelah) 

If you've any suggestions (on what I should write in the upcoming post) or any questions do hmu at as I have plenty of time to be wasted. 

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